I'm real messed up..

[Dane E5R]

Hey. I've been havin' a lot of trouble with my ex girlfriend lately. It's simply unbearable, and I've been driven to a suicidal point.. So if I sorta disappear after awhile, well, it's been fun.

[Machias Banshee]

wai wai wait.... :o


How about you tell us whats wrong, instead of doing something drastic? You know we're all here for you... :(

[Mondo J. Gecko]

Definatley don't do anything drastic.... we're all he for support

[Leo656]

Believe me when I say that while I understand (wasn't I not doing so well myself a week ago or so?), NO woman is worth suicide.

Hang in there dude.

[Jo Dawn]

How about you tell us whats wrong, instead of doing something drastic? You know we're all here for you... :(

Definitly. We're here for you. *hugs*

[JameO]

Yeah man your a Raph fan and as am I and it has been a good time talking with you on these baords. Dont do anything crazy like that! Just tell us the story we can help!

[Blaze DTGG]

yeah.. just talk to someone.. but don't do anything rash.. nothing is worth losing your life over.

you have my email address.. I am always around in some form... let me know you are ok

Blaze DTGG

[Raven]

oh man dont do any thing dumb!!!!!!

you should probably know that I was actulley scarded to show my art work here, but when I saw your stuff I felt complled to put my stuff up.
you like one of the few people here I look up to! being the great artist you are, thats what makes me look up to you.

so please rethink things over!!!!!!!

[Kid Icarus]

Elite, let us help, please? we (i wasn't really involved with helping, but i did add to the after party XD) did a good job with Leo, so we should be able to help you too :) .

[Eternelle]

Please don't do that...nothing is worth that. You're the third guy this week I've been trying to convince not to kill themselves....At least if you stay alive, you still have the chance to make things better, so hang in there! And although I'm a girl myself, I'm gonna have to agree with Leo on this....no woman is worth you killing yourself over.

[Skeletoncrew]

Stick it to the bitch! Get through this and go on with your life. Live it as best you can, and enjoy it every moment you are able. She's an ex, get her out of your life as much as you possibly can. Unless you're living with her, there's no reason you should ever need to talk to her.

[damnhooligan]

I sincerely hope it doesn't get to that point. From what I've seen and observed, you have talents that are incredibly rare. I know how you feel, and I've felt it far too many times myself. In time, it gets better.

Best of luck, man.

[That Matt Guy]

I could see how a person could be driven to murder, but suicide? Thats just a cowards way out.

[Mars-Chan]

DUDE! Listen to me...no woman is that bad. Don't do anything irrational! I know I'm gonna get pummeled for saying this but....never stray from your real friends...they are there to always to talk to you about something like this. I am even availbile through PM. If you ever...EVER...need to talk to any of us....don't be afraid to. We are always here to help.

[cqb101]

Don't do it, dude! As everybody else said we're here if you need to talk.

[JameO]

I could see how a person could be driven to murder, but suicide? Thats just a cowards way out.

I agree. I know she might be the woman for you or atleast you think she is. But come on man! She is putting you through all this heck she is not worth it! You want to be trapped in a relation where you are giving love and she is only taking it in and not returning? Don't do it. It is not worth it. What does killing yourself solving anything? Making her feel bad? That is about it. Same boat as Leo but he isn't as much as killing himself they made up. Try and make up if you can't move on and find someone that will understand you and be there for you when you need them. And please respond to this thread if your on just so we know your still here! Don't DO IT!!!!

[Mr. Snackpants]

Don't do it!!! That doesn't accomplish anything. You cant just run away from your problems, you gotta work things out. I know, because one of my friends was like this about 5 years ago, in 8th grade.

[Mars-Chan]

Please post. We are REALLY concerned about you.

[The Stryker]

heh.....don't be mean

i wasn't being mean

im gonna kill myself as well...just telling him he'll have company on the long ride down

[Mars-Chan]

http://www.globalxs.nl/home/s/schaapjes/animate/co8.gif
Do WHAT now?

[The Stryker]

......*sigh*

[Mars-Chan]

WHAT?!?!?

[The Stryker]

.....just...leave me alone

[HorseTechie]

:evil: Well... Death is for the whimps. Cause what doesn't kill ya, only makes you stronger. And that it's always the worse right before everything turns for the better.

Guys... don't be whimps. Just quitting, giving up, and going out the easy, cheaters way ain't showing anyone how awesome you are. No.. it's people who can pull through the crap that life throws at them who get all the attention and reward for being so brave.

Just... hang in there. You can pull through. Honestly.

*sends up another prayer*

[Mars-Chan]

Preach it, HT!

[malignant]

I swear More people post about commiting suicide on this forum then any other subject......ok, maybe a little over board....but blah. -shakes head.

[The Stryker]

:|

was that supposted to lift my spirit?

because all it did was make me reach for the goddamn razor quicker

[Mars-Chan]

PUT...THE....RAZOR....DOWN......

[malignant]

Razor?..wow..original !

[The Stryker]

i would use a ****ing gun but im not a rich bastard with money coming out of my ass


Goodbye to all the people who gave a damn

[Mars-Chan]

Put the razor down....there's more to life than killing yourself....

[JameO]

I know Malignant is a little out of hand but he is really true. "I have a razor on the desk" How do we know there really is a razor. Its not that I don't believe you all I wish I could but sometimes this stuff is all balony. Just give it up. Death aint cool. You think you going to help anyone by doing that? GET YOUR PROBLEMS WORKED OUT!

[Mars-Chan]

*nods to the pic* See Eric and the flowers....?I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO DO THE SAME THING HE'S DOING! WORK OUT YOUR PROBLEMS!!!!!

[Mr. Snackpants]

i would use a f*** gun but im not a rich bastard with money coming out of my ass


Goodbye to all the people who gave a damn
What happened to you?

[Mars-Chan]

Stryker here wants to commit suicide.

[The Stryker]

its not like any of you people care

[Mr. Snackpants]

oh, just saw some of her other posts. what is that now, 3 people? geez

[Mars-Chan]

Ok....that's it. *walks away*

[JameO]

Yes just walk away. Like all the other people should be doing. But they would rather stab themselves. :roll:

[Mars-Chan]

Raph, you're with me on this aren't you?

[Eternelle]

Gads...I'm with you two on this as well. And amen to everything HT said.

[Mars-Chan]

*nods for Eternelle and Raph to follow her* Come on. Let's get outta here and find something that has nothing to do with KILLING ONESELF. *huffs and walks to the door to wait for the other two*

[Eternelle]

*quickly follows Mars out*

[Mars-Chan]

*walks over to the nearest tree, leans on it, rests a foot on the trunk* I just don't understand WHY some people want to do such a thing, Eternelle. Never once have I even THOUGHT about something like that. NEVER ONCE.

[Raven]

elite I think its easy to see that this board needs you, i mean come on we made it to the 3rd page already.

just dont do anything you'll regrert.

and strycker same goes for you, no one should do somthing so ignorant, like they say, one person can make a difference, same goes with one person gone can make a difference, A HUGE SAD DIFFERENCE!!!

[Voltron]

This, to, shall pass. Raph everyone gets stuck in a rut, its life. I mean, trust me, I've been suicidal for suicidal for about three years now. Let me tell you, life has its ups and downs; and sadly you're in a down right now. But look on the bright side, if things are so bad, they can only go up. Right? Look at this concern for your well being. You're a talented individual, and it would be more than a crime to deprive us of your gifts and friendship.

[Kid Icarus]

very well said Voltron.

[Cascadia]

Please do not commit suicide. This problem will pass eventually. The last few years I had several serious problems that it caused depression. I was not a very happy person but I kept my chin up and kept striding on. I knew that I will grow out of my problems. I know that you feel down now but believe me, things will brighten up. Just as Voltron says, life has its ups and downs.

[Mondo_Gecko]

Elite Raph while I don't what your going through as I have never been suicidal and probably never will be, giving up on life is not the right answer. Life is so short you have to enjoy every last minute of it because you never know when your number's up. People are taken unexpectly every day unfairly when they shoulden't be and it sucks and to just put yourself in a dark pllace and give up on life is just plain silly dude. You got a great life i bet with wonderful friends, family and the world is yours if you want it to be. The best thing to do would to be to think of all the good things in life like your favourite things, friends, girls etc and realize that life is too short and to give up on all the great wonderful things in this world is a silly mistake I know your feeling like giving up but don't take a turn down Death Express when you have the world at your fingertips.

I'm a struggling actor right now and its tough man it really is but just because I didn't get a part is no reason i wouldf ever give up. I love Life way too much i live every day like its the last. I have fun, party, joke around, cheer people up when thee down, play sum b-ball and enjoy the Ride. That's what Life is a ride and its up to you to know what direction your gunna take it.

I hope your feeling better about yourself now and in the future

- Mondo Gecko

[Storm Wolf]

everyone has pretty much said it all......everyone has thier purpose in life, and you may not find it till your 90! look anyone worth your time won't make you feel like a pile of crap! There are many people here you can talk to as an outlet of you depression or anger....or just whatever your feeling. Life does have it's up's and downs.....mine has more downs than anything, but i choose not to let it get to me in such a way that i need to kill myself....though i have been to that point and decide it was not for me......I know that i'm here to serve a purpose....even if it's to help some of the depressed peoples gain their hope back....I'm with Mars and the others....you ever need someone to talk to just PM me or IM me....I'll listen and help the best i can. Think of all the people you would hurt by killing your self....it doesn't just effect you......it does seem kinda selfish doesn't it? :-?

Remember: To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world! :wink:

[JameO]

I am with you Mars. I know Voltron that people can be suicidal but on a message board you don't know what's right and what's wrong. And 3 people right in a row? I know life can be bad at some parts but come on!

[Dane E5R]

Hey guys.. I just didn't want you all to think that I wasn't responding to this to purposely make you worry or freak you out, it's just that I had no idea what to say.. I'm really, really appreciative of all the support you've all given me, and all the offers to help me get through this, but I'm not really trying to be saved. If worse comes to worse, then that'll be it. But I'll let you know that I haven't just immediately given up just yet, I'm still trying to work through it.. But like I said before, my stay here has been great, and you all are magnificent people.

Stryker, I'm not so sure what you were attempting to do with all of this. You claim that no one cares for you, and when people very bluntly show that they do, you shun them. I don't understand.

Sorry if that sounds a bit hypocritical..

[damnhooligan]

Best of luck in working things out in your favour, Elite5Raph. Rest assured, that if you ever need any outside uninvolved support or advice, we're here for you.

[Raven]

well its nice to see that your still putting up and a fight, and like damnhooligan said were here for you.

[Eternelle]

I'm so glad to hear that you're hanging in there, Elite! We would really miss you around here if you did give up hope. :( I'm praying that things work out for the best, for you.

Stryker, I'm not so sure what you were attempting to do with all of this. You claim that no one cares for you, and when people very bluntly show that they do, you shun them. I don't understand.

Sorry if that sounds a bit hypocritical..

So I wasn't the only one who noticed!

[Voltron]

Glad to see you're still here. I was getting a bit concerned.

[Mr. Snackpants]

^yup glad to see your still here. stay strong........

[Mars-Chan]

*calls from the backyard* Stay strong....I have faith you will!
You must learn to respect every living thing...from the crawling ant to the leaping antelope....
"Yeah, but dad....don't we EAT the antelope?"
............................. :o Whoops....wrong fourm.... :tanime: :lol:

[Jo Dawn]

Elite - glad to see another post from you. Good for you for sticking it out. Let me say this: I won't pretend to say that I know what you're going through. Because I don't. But no person is worth killing yourself over.

And I know you said that you're trying to work through it. Good for you. As you're doing so, just think of the little things to look forward to. You obviously love the TMNT, or you wouldn't be on this board. Look forward to the new episodes, new toys, new comics. And fanfic and fanart. These might only be little things, but they always bring me joy. And art... you are blessed with a great talent, Elite. Drawing obviously brings you joy. You can see it in each of your pictures.

That said, I want to let you know, if you didn't already, that I am always available for you to talk to, rant to, whatever. You have my email.

I'm praying that things will get better for you. Stay strong.

[GK Punk]

Hey guys.. I just didn't want you all to think that I wasn't responding to this to purposely make you worry or freak you out, it's just that I had no idea what to say.. I'm really, really appreciative of all the support you've all given me, and all the offers to help me get through this, but I'm not really trying to be saved. If worse comes to worse, then that'll be it. But I'll let you know that I haven't just immediately given up just yet, I'm still trying to work through it.. But like I said before, my stay here has been great, and you all are magnificent people.

Stryker, I'm not so sure what you were attempting to do with all of this. You claim that no one cares for you, and when people very bluntly show that they do, you shun them. I don't understand.

Sorry if that sounds a bit hypocritical..

Man, I'm glad you answered. I was starting to get worried -_-

[kyabetsu]

i can't SPEAK for stryker...

but guys, and you'll have to trust me on this one, b/c i've been there, did the cutting, wore the bandages, dealt with the lack of trust that comes AFTERWARDS when no one thinks you won't try it again....

and as for what stryker's done on this thread? the looking for any kind of support, then pushing it away?

lemme let you in on a secret:

when you're suididal... you're not rational.
you LOOK for help, but it DOESN"T change the problem and that's almost more frustrating than the problem itself. you CAN"T think clearly. and no. there's not much that fixs the problem... it's a nasty spiral ... obviously... b/c the only answer you can see is eliminating the root of the problem: YOU.



so.
elite5raph, i'm GLAD you got your head back on enough that you can take a rational approach to your problems. that's a hard slope to climb and i'm glad to see you're near the top of it.


Stryker?
hey. look. there's nothing i can say in here that'll make the whole hurting thing stop. Or unravel the problems. Or make you feel less trapped. But.
even though i KNOW there's very little that this will actually change, I can say:

i've been there. and it does get better... it's a long dark road. it's not easy. and at times you question whether it was all just wasted effort. but trust me. we'd miss you if you weren't here. your family would miss you. your friends would miss you. You are not insignificant HERE. even if it would fix whatever problems are haunting you elsewhere, you can't escape the fact that you'd make new problems in the lives of people who care about you if you were to kill yourself, or even attempt to hurt yourself.

it may even feel WORSE once you realize death is not an option, but i'm telling you, stryker... you aren't trapped, it does get better.

good luck. i don't expect you to get instantly better. when it's come this far, it's hard to turn back around. and it's important to understand that. but i do hope you come back to yourself again. we'll be waiting for you, however long it takes.