Blaze DTGG
01-02-2004, 02:05 AM
As many of you are aware my Grandfather recently passed away. What most of you don't know is the whole story. I think I am ready to talk because who knows. anything is possible and for all i know, I could die tomorrow.
My grandparents raised me as a child so my mom could finish scool, work and trie to make a better life for us. I don't know my biological father and the man I call dad she did not marry until i was 2 years old.
My grandparents meant more to me than most people can understand. By the time you reach the age I am now. Most peoples grandparents are either dead already or they just aren't close to them.
This is not the case with me. They remained an importand influence throughout my entire life. My grandfather taught me to read and instilled the love of word in me before I was even in kindergarden. I never would have picked up a pen and wrote my first short stories as a child if it had not been for him. He also taought me to sing. Very few people know how much music means to me. Music is my life. I play a variety of instruments and sing every chance i get. Music calms me when i am tense. It energizes me when i need a boost. I cannot life without music in my life. and I owe that to my grandada. He was a war veteran and lost many things during that time. He taught me most of what i hold dear. Along with my father who is also a military man. they helped instil in me the knowladge of right and wrong. Most of my Personal code of honor I owe to them. I am who I am today because of not just my parents but my grand parents as well.
My granny was the one who taught me kindness and love. she had endless amounts of love and patience. which is probably where I get my endless amounts of patience. Her and my mom helped bring out everything that is good and kind in me. Which most people dont get to see that side of me because frankly the world had turned to ****. and not just in my own life.
When my grandfather passed away my Granny was in the hospital. but she was doing ok. I missed my grandads funeral. he had a full military funeral, complete with 21 gun salute and honor guard. he was burried with honors on sacred ground. with some of Texas's other great war heros. I know my ganddads war stories but this is not the time for that. Anyway, she was in the hosptial but she was ok. then hings started to not be so ok. by wed. of this week she had slipped into a coma. thursday morning they pulled her plugs. thursday afternoon around 1pm. she passed away.
I have now lost 2 of the most important people in my life in less than a month. and the most tragic thing about al of this. is before i moved here to Utah. I had a falling out with my grandfather. I never got to say Im sorry, I never got to say goodbye. I also havent seen my grandmother since I moved...... these are things I will have to live with for the rest of my life. things I will carry with me to the grave. Hopefully. I will be lucky like my friend Matt and Die young. but stubborn onrey people like me tend to live forever.
My grandparents raised me as a child so my mom could finish scool, work and trie to make a better life for us. I don't know my biological father and the man I call dad she did not marry until i was 2 years old.
My grandparents meant more to me than most people can understand. By the time you reach the age I am now. Most peoples grandparents are either dead already or they just aren't close to them.
This is not the case with me. They remained an importand influence throughout my entire life. My grandfather taught me to read and instilled the love of word in me before I was even in kindergarden. I never would have picked up a pen and wrote my first short stories as a child if it had not been for him. He also taought me to sing. Very few people know how much music means to me. Music is my life. I play a variety of instruments and sing every chance i get. Music calms me when i am tense. It energizes me when i need a boost. I cannot life without music in my life. and I owe that to my grandada. He was a war veteran and lost many things during that time. He taught me most of what i hold dear. Along with my father who is also a military man. they helped instil in me the knowladge of right and wrong. Most of my Personal code of honor I owe to them. I am who I am today because of not just my parents but my grand parents as well.
My granny was the one who taught me kindness and love. she had endless amounts of love and patience. which is probably where I get my endless amounts of patience. Her and my mom helped bring out everything that is good and kind in me. Which most people dont get to see that side of me because frankly the world had turned to ****. and not just in my own life.
When my grandfather passed away my Granny was in the hospital. but she was doing ok. I missed my grandads funeral. he had a full military funeral, complete with 21 gun salute and honor guard. he was burried with honors on sacred ground. with some of Texas's other great war heros. I know my ganddads war stories but this is not the time for that. Anyway, she was in the hosptial but she was ok. then hings started to not be so ok. by wed. of this week she had slipped into a coma. thursday morning they pulled her plugs. thursday afternoon around 1pm. she passed away.
I have now lost 2 of the most important people in my life in less than a month. and the most tragic thing about al of this. is before i moved here to Utah. I had a falling out with my grandfather. I never got to say Im sorry, I never got to say goodbye. I also havent seen my grandmother since I moved...... these are things I will have to live with for the rest of my life. things I will carry with me to the grave. Hopefully. I will be lucky like my friend Matt and Die young. but stubborn onrey people like me tend to live forever.