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So...yeah. I was feeling good there for awhile. Apparently it's one of those "out of the frying pan and into the fire" scenarios. It seems like just about everything is completely f*cking up. I had a small rest period and now sh*t's gone and got crazaay! I just have problems at every single turn, and there's just no end in sight.
My biggest problem is that I spend so much time dwelling on all these various problems. I literally do nothing. I come home from work everyday, I sit on my couch, or lay in my bed and do nothing. Every now and again I'll toss in a game and start playing, but I'm not really playing, I'm just kind of going through the motions and not thinking it through. I'll sit down and read a book, or watch TV, but my mind is never in it. It's always wandering off, thinking and worrying. My eating habits have even been curbed to the point where I'm eating a single small meal a day, if that.
I really don't know why life is so sh*tty all the time, but it is. The last 5 or 6 months have just been a nightmare. I guess this is what I get for over 20 years of pure ignorant bliss. I never made the effort to grow up, so now that I'm supposed to get stuff done on my own and stop relying on other people, I don't know what's what. I drank for the first time in a long time about two weeks ago, I could see it turning into a regular thing.
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