i just want something good in the personal life to happen.
i had a major panic/anxiety attack in february and had to all but stop driving by myself because of it. and it's been a long time in the making.
having to rely on others to take you places is no way to live either. AND I hit 40 next year. at this point i'm about ready to do what my old barber suggested. Become a monk. because all they apparently do is contemplate the universe, stay silent, and drink beer all day according to him
sigh...i'd be happier for other people's successes if i could make a few of my own happen.