NK Seeking Help
 

I'm doing it so i can finally be dead.

Breathe, friend.
Just breathe.

that's the PROBLEM i won't STOP breathing.all of this could beover in 2 minutes if i could.

Did you ever get online contact information for your support team?
Because if you have, you should use it today.

it doesnt matter because they cant help me every time i go in there i tell them EXACTLY what the problem is and EXACTLY what i need and everyone just shoves their heads up their asses and shrugs.

Net, calm down. Other people aren't your problem.

Talk to someone and take some deep breaths.

What is this thread?

Calm down dude

it doesnt matter if i talk to someone, all that will do is remind me that i cant tell the public what my problem is at absolutely any cost, and the peope i tell privately cant do anything eiother. ****ing nobody can.

Wait so NK, are you talking about self harm or just killing people then self harm or just killing people?

oh i just want to be dead.

I know you're having an episode right now and getting anything through to you is near impossible, but nothing is gonna change unless you make it change. Get help. Serious help.

it doesnt matter because NOBODY wants to help me. and everyone that says they do is probably lying because otehrwise i would have gotten this ****ing help already, i have been shuffled from doctor to fuycking doctor and doctors have quit their jobs all probably because they dont want to help me and they just want me to suffer and they probably hope i'll bite tyhe bullet pretty soon so they can stop being fake people. unless they enjoy being fake people like hellary clearly does.

my first case manager person i think si the word, she was super nice to me and said she realluy enjoyed having me around and would ****ing drive me to a place to get what i needed her ****ing self

next week i come in, i'm told she's on vacation for three weeks.

i come in three weeks later, i'm told she doesn't work here any more.

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP.

they dont want to help me.

none of tehm do.

they will lie then resport to extremems to keep themselves from having to dedicate to that lie.

I think you're pretty mad and I feel bad for you

i just want help and to live an actual goddamn life.

but everyone wants me to eventually kill myself, otherweise people wopuldnt do these thingd to me.

Dont kys.

What's wrong that you ned help with anyway?

i can't say. if i said it, i'd get treated even worse.

It sucks how much trial and error there is in life, but...that's how it works.
Just because something hasn't worked for you doesn't mean EVERYTHING won't.

Breathe.
This will pass.

Tell yourself. Say it outloud.
Your brain is lying when it says no one can help.
It's lying when it says no one wants to help.
It's lying when it says this isn't temporary.