I got shot

[Katie]

the silence in this place is killing me.

I posted this because no one in real life does give two rips about me. I had to vent some feelings. I guess if poeople don't wanna read or deal with it they don't have to look at the thread. The silence here is killing me. I'm loosing my mind. I'm scared to go out my door and I don't have anyone else to talk to. And maybe this is teh only way I have right now of just....breaking down and crying for a few minutes.

My "friends" only cared about who was using my ticket to the game today. (and maybe if it wasn't too much trouble I could go to their house and babysit all 5 kids while they went and had fun.) yeah..I know what I am to them. Free babysitter.

My family went on vacation yesterday...gonna be gone until next week and then they are all going to Vegas for Christmas. I can't afford to go. Whatever.

I don't need anyone anyway. I'm better off on my own. The silence will stop bothering me eventually and I will stop caring.