The New Café

[GK Punk]

I'm actually really glad that out of this tragedy someone is getting a second chance. I think Ashlie would have wanted it that way too. It's almost comforting to know.

[Jester]

Indeed, sorry for your family's loss, but you're right, Ashlie is saving others,

[Tinuvielsdreams]

Oh my... sorry to hear all those things have happened Ruko. That's a lot for a person take at once.
I wish I could hug everyone or something.
Donating an organ is an amazing thing GK. That must have been hard.
My condolences to GK, Ruko and Jester and their families.
These things are so hard and they rarely make sense but all we can too is take the support of loved ones.

[XERO]

Well, it's nice to know that even in death, comes life.

I never really realized that.

I also realize that it's kinda dumb to complain about how my life is when there is always someone 10 times worse.

It's hard to accept, but I have to. I guess that's the first step of overcoming this.

So, I just want to apologize for any uncomfort I caused with you guys about this. You all have your own demons to battle, and I forget that sometimes.

Well, not really. Being that my mind is kind of in a dark place right now.

But, you guys know I try to be there for you, because I want to be. It's who I am. Before this disease and it's how it's gonna be after.

I can't offer much else support, but this smile is for you all.

[gobo]

Originally Posted by Kunoichi_Haruko

Right. Okay.

I was going to post something long and overly verbose about why I haven't been around for a few weeks, but seeing as it's been over an hour, and I'm still composing it, and I'm not even halfway done, I'll just get to the main points:

• I've been pretty listless and depressed for (at least) the last five years.
• No one (in my family) seems to have noticed.
• Since no one noticed, I resolved to sort my life out by myself.

I was doing okay in January. It's been a f*cked up February. Some catastrophic events:

• My father passed away on the 2nd.
• My uncle (aunt's husband) passed away on the 13th. We just buried him today.

I've gone back to square one. Scratch that, I'm at -5000 at this point. I feel numb and empty (which is rather funny, as those words imply not feeling anything), and I feel myself going to a very dark place. I know it's being exacerbated by the fact that I've been surrounded by death for pretty much the last month, but I can't stop myself going there. I'm not coping as well as everyone seems to think. Help please.

A new frame of mind is my suggestion. Ever see those people who seem to be in a chipper mood at all times and wonder how they manage to do it? Emulate being happy/satisfied long enough and you might start to believe you really are.In short: Cheer up, lady. No one can do that for you. After you've tried some methods of beating this, should you think you need some medicinal help, contact a physician.

Originally Posted by GK

I'm actually really glad that out of this tragedy someone is getting a second chance. I think Ashlie would have wanted it that way too. It's almost comforting to know.

Does it make you as proud as it would me? That's a very noble thing she's now involved in.

Originally Posted by Benvenuto

Well, it's nice to know that even in death, comes life.

I never really realized that.

I also realize that it's kinda dumb to complain about how my life is when there is always someone 10 times worse.

It's hard to accept, but I have to. I guess that's the first step of overcoming this.

So, I just want to apologize for any uncomfort I caused with you guys about this. You all have your own demons to battle, and I forget that sometimes.

Well, not really. Being that my mind is kind of in a dark place right now.

But, you guys know I try to be there for you, because I want to be. It's who I am. Before this disease and it's how it's gonna be after.

I can't offer much else support, but this smile is for you all.

Tone down the modesty, won't you?

[Katie]

so....Frankenputer finally died. I mean dead. If you didn't know, frankenputer was my old POS computer that I basically built from a shell and lotsa spare parts. Never meant for it to last too long....it lived longer than i thought.

anyway, now I have a nice new shiny computer courtesy of my tax refund (and I still have $900 left over! yee haw!)

hooooooooray for happy things.

but...

if I must complain a little in this thread...



BANKING SUCKS!!



whoever keeps saying banks aren't lending money obviously hasn't seen my desk piled high with loan applications that I approve approve approve all day long approve!! yet still I am bitched out every day because of this or that. oh well.

I would very much like to go somewhere and regain my sanity now.

[gobo]

I just woke up at 11. My good friend is burying his mom right now and I was supposed to be there at 10. I ****ing hate myself for this.

[Peanut]

So instead of leaving you jump on the Technodrome.

[gobo]

Leave for where, ****-head? I don't know what graveyard they're at and I don't drive.

[Peanut]

You really are a worthless piece of sh*t, then.

[gobo]

I guess I can accept that since it takes one to know one.

[愛]

The insults and comebacks just get better every day around here.

So what was the point in even telling us this?

[KROW]

Originally Posted by gobo

I just woke up at 11. My good friend is burying his mom right now and I was supposed to be there at 10. I ****ing hate myself for this.

Well, that's the good thing about sympathy cards. You should probably go get one, preferably blank, so you can convey how bad you feel to your friend and his family. Or maybe a phone call would be an option, too.

[Voltron]

As a moderator, I am disappointed by your behavior and frown.


However, as Satan, I am quite glad and urge you to continue.

How I loathe inner conflicts!

[Cure]

Sorry, gobo, but it's true. The last thing you should have done is hopped on the Drome.

[Sewer Bull]

Originally Posted by gobo

I just woke up at 11. My good friend is burying his mom right now and I was supposed to be there at 10.

Originally Posted by gobo

I don't know what graveyard they're at and I don't drive.

Sooo... he was supposed to pick you up and drive you there, or something?

I don't really get it.

[Voltron]

Logic's bastions on the technodrome fell some time in 2002. Now only chaos reigns here, Mino. Chaos, only chaos.

[Brodie]

If LogicDonny were here, he'd have an answer.

[Ra]

^^ I lol'd.

Gobo, I repeat what has been said: don't come on here and tell us about it. Your friend needs you now more than ever. Call him up or something and offer your support.

And, I know it's a bit late, but my condolences to you both GK and Jester. My thoughts and prayers go out to you both. *hugs* And I hope your depression doesn't last any longer Kunoichi. I've been down that dark road recently and it's not fun at all.

[Peanut]

This is gonna be some long and tedious sh*t, but I just want to get some f*cking opinions up in this thread, especially from any of the ladies.

My girlfriend has been pissing me off recently, and I want to know if I'm to blame for this, or if she is. She's a person that there's no arguing with, because losing to her isn't an option. She's probably the most competitive person I've ever met. I'm fine with all of this, when she starts trying to compete with me over something, I always give in, when she wants to argue, I almost always settle for being wrong.

Almost 100% of the time, we're fine, but whenever she goes back to school, 4 hours away in Ottawa, she'll last a few days before she starts to miss me, and God help me if she doesn't come home for the weekend, because she really starts to get moody.

So, tonight she phones me, clearly in one of her sad "I miss you so much" moods, and I do everything a normal boyfriend would do to make her feel better. A little later on, she calls again, this time I'm eating, watching TV, and hanging out with my sister. When I tell her I'll call her back in about 20 minutes, she starts getting sulky and angry. When I call her back 20 minutes later, I'm public enemy number 1. Her problem is suddenly that she's my second choice, because I chose to hang out with my sister rather than talk to her. Then she starts saying that I'm mean and rude, among other things. She starts saying it's "a problem" that I hang out with my sister and "ignore" her. I know my sister can be extremely annoying, often butting into conversations or complaining about sh*t that doesn't concern her, but seriously, what the f*ck. She's my sister, I can't get rid of her, or something!

Anyways, this all culminated in her flipping out entirely, especially when I told her that she was being silly over something so small, and starts calling me mean. She also flips between thinking I sound too "whiny" and that I'm "yelling". Even when my voice doesn't change, she flips between them, never happy with my tone.

I really don't know what the hell to do here. We've been together for essentially 4 years at this point, and she still goes into one of these fits from time to time, this one just set me off because of how it was inevitably turned around into how "awful" a boyfriend I am, and I told her if people heard this sh*t they probably wouldn't believe it.

I know I'll never be a perfect boyfriend, but I don't think I'm that terrible. We painted a picture together that I hung over my bed for Valentines, I surprise her with little gifts when I get the chance, I give her massages and write her lover letters and poems every so often, I constantly make her food and get her anything she needs (before she even knows she needs it), I've even physically fed her food while she's played a videogame. I don't argue with her about anything, I constantly give up whatever I'm doing to be with her or do something she enjoys, I stop playing games or watching something I like when she says so, I would never think of making her watch a movie she didn't like, on a couple occassions I've gone without any type of sex for however long and it's never bothered me, I do f*cking EVERYTHING! And you know what I'll get in return when she's in one of these moods? That I'm a bad boyfriend.

Now, maybe it's just me, but as a person who loves their girlfriend so much, would do anything in the WORLD to make them happy, I really don't think I deserve to get yelled at because I had to take 20 minutes to eat dinner and watch TV with my sister.