Holiday Doldrums

[BubblyShell22]

Originally Posted by Leo656

That kind of doesn't bother me. If it HAS to snow, it might as well be on Christmas, just to give it a point. Otherwise it's just a nuisance.

Leo, you can have my snowstorm all you want. I don't want it. That's just more sinus trouble and misery for me, and I just don't want that. I'd like a day where for once I can kick the sinus problems and actually feel good, but that's not happening with this weird weather.

Originally Posted by ZariusTwo

Oh dear, sorry to hear about that Bubbly, I'll be sure do my best to cheer you up on the day. I'll probably leave a few reviews of the fics I haven't gotten to yet (was a bit busy) thanks for your kind words about my buddy (she loved my poem by the way)

Hey, no problem about the reviews, Zar. I'm not fussed about that. Just take your time and review when you can because life happens. I really want to finish "Silent Night" soon before Christmas, and I hope I can. Just one more chapter left.

And you're welcome about your friend. I feel it's nice to send condolences because it's just the right thing to do.

[Leo656]

I feel ya, I hate this sh*t too. Believe it or not, out of all the BS I've ever dealt with, nothing has ever pushed me to the edge like this does. Because it happens SO much, gets SO bad, and lingers for SO long. I mean, we haven't even had bad weather over here, except a little rain and some temperature fluctuations, and I'm still sick as hell. And I've had people - MANY of them - be all, "Dude, just man up, nobody gets THAT sick", until they're actually around it, and then it's like, "Woah... uhhh, yeah, so that's... a lot of red, blood-streaked mucous you got goin' on there. Have fun not dying." One of the most frustrating things of all has always been getting people to understand that I'm not exaggerating this sh*t in the least. I don't get colds, I don't get "a little" sick, I have two degrees, "Perfectly Healthy", and "Suicide Watch." Absolutely zero middle ground. And I have zero interest in sitting in bed or missing work, ever. But I've not really been given a choice in the matter my whole life. Luckily, my boss is aware of it and frankly, most all my clients are sick, too, so I ain't missing much. But I'm not having a good time, and it's only one day in.

More than anything that's what always keeps me in a bad mood around the Holidays. Nothing else really, not even a little depression. Just the constant paranoia and fear that someone is gonna cough in my general area and ruin my goddamn Christmas. I can't relax, I can't enjoy myself, and I hate it.

Check around for specialists and stuff in your area. I know there are corrective surgeries that are supposed to help, but I'm stuck in that "Earning too much for assistance, yet too damn broke to pay for specialists and surgeries" bubble. For SOME reason, this isn't considered "disability" and I kind of think it should be. What exactly is more "disabling" than not being able to breathe correctly - or at ALL - and spending half your life entirely sick? Respiratory illnesses are goddamn real, and I can't stand that most people are all, "Awww, ya got a sniffle?" Die.

Anyways, best of luck. I'm with ya.

[TheCanadiandrome]

ah snow, Bubbly i'm afraid i can't take it from you, you can keep it!

[Candy Kappa]

I haven't really fet the holiday spirit myself either, might be because it's my first Yule without a whole lot of cash to buy presents, and I haven't started buying any yet.

But I'm sure when we're dining at my grandma's place things will be better, this is after all the first Christmas me and my partner is celebrating together.

[pennydreadful]

Originally Posted by Don Gaddis

Slightly off-topic, but just to add to what TheCanadiandrome mentioned, personally I think that it's a good rule of thumb (and basic manners/etiquette) to treat others with kindness and respect when the death of a loved one is mentioned, be it online or during one's day to
day life.

I feel it's a good rule of thumb to treat others with kindness (or, at bare minimum) basic courtesy, full stop. I think the internet makes it way too easy for people to behave like complete wankstains just for teh lulz.

[BubblyShell22]

Originally Posted by Leo656

I feel ya, I hate this sh*t too. Believe it or not, out of all the BS I've ever dealt with, nothing has ever pushed me to the edge like this does. Because it happens SO much, gets SO bad, and lingers for SO long. I mean, we haven't even had bad weather over here, except a little rain and some temperature fluctuations, and I'm still sick as hell. And I've had people - MANY of them - be all, "Dude, just man up, nobody gets THAT sick", until they're actually around it, and then it's like, "Woah... uhhh, yeah, so that's... a lot of red, blood-streaked mucous you got goin' on there. Have fun not dying." One of the most frustrating things of all has always been getting people to understand that I'm not exaggerating this sh*t in the least. I don't get colds, I don't get "a little" sick, I have two degrees, "Perfectly Healthy", and "Suicide Watch." Absolutely zero middle ground. And I have zero interest in sitting in bed or missing work, ever. But I've not really been given a choice in the matter my whole life. Luckily, my boss is aware of it and frankly, most all my clients are sick, too, so I ain't missing much. But I'm not having a good time, and it's only one day in.

More than anything that's what always keeps me in a bad mood around the Holidays. Nothing else really, not even a little depression. Just the constant paranoia and fear that someone is gonna cough in my general area and ruin my goddamn Christmas. I can't relax, I can't enjoy myself, and I hate it.

Check around for specialists and stuff in your area. I know there are corrective surgeries that are supposed to help, but I'm stuck in that "Earning too much for assistance, yet too damn broke to pay for specialists and surgeries" bubble. For SOME reason, this isn't considered "disability" and I kind of think it should be. What exactly is more "disabling" than not being able to breathe correctly - or at ALL - and spending half your life entirely sick? Respiratory illnesses are goddamn real, and I can't stand that most people are all, "Awww, ya got a sniffle?" Die.

Anyways, best of luck. I'm with ya.

Meh, I don't want to see a specialist on the off chance that nothing can be done. I still chalk it up to when I had my eye surgery and they gave me oxygen. That's when it all started because I had a major headache after my surgery, and it's been like that ever since. It's just one of those things I can't help. I never used to have problems before, but after that, it's all gone downhill. As I said, I probably could see a specialist, but I'm not the type who trusts doctors anymore and would rather not take that risk and then be told there's nothing that can be done. To heck with it.

[Leo656]

Meh? MEH? I would take ANY chance to put this behind me forever. They can take a hand, an eye, or the testicle I'm not particularly all that fond of. I just want to BREATHE, to have the life of a normal person. I'd give ANYTHING, try absolutely ANYTHING...

You don't wanna know how much blood I brought up today. Seriously. It's BAD. And it happens ALL the time.

I have been assured by several non-specialist doctors that there ARE surgeries that can help, I just need a specialist's recommendation and the money to pay for it, and I don't have that right now. I know a few people who had issues similar to mine, and they're much better now. I hate doctors, too, but the fact that other people have been helped is what keeps me going, sometimes. The idea that someday, when I have the money, I might not have to suffer anymore.

I have been told one possible down side is, depending on the type of surgery I'd need, I could lose my sense of smell. Whatever. I can't smell anything anyway, I'm constantly sick for 7 months a year! Small price to pay.

No offense, but if you're in that much pain, take the shot. Otherwise you're suffering when you maybe don't have to, and I can't see any logic in that.

[MsMarvelDuckie]

Originally Posted by Cure

I...what? Canadianguy was right, it was nine days yesterday. Today, the 17th, it is eight.

18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25

Eight dates starting with the next full day like you said. Eight. Midnight tonight will be seven. Counting is hard.

Did you guys even look at the date I was posting on? Cause I started with the next FULL day, as in counting FROM that day, not adding the current day. (which would actually have made it 8 1/2, from my post date.)

As in- today (12-18-14) is nearly over. Don't count it, as it is already past. So 19 20 21 22 23 24. You DON'T count the 25th, as it IS Christmas day. the original poster said it was six days UNTIL X-Mas. Now, it actually IS six. Thank you- I rest my case.....

[snake]

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Originally Posted by MsMarvelDuckie

Did you guys even look at the date I was posting on? Cause I started with the next FULL day, as in counting FROM that day, not adding the current day. (which would actually have made it 8 1/2, from my post date.)

As in- today (12-18-14) is nearly over. Don't count it, as it is already past. So 19 20 21 22 23 24. You DON'T count the 25th, as it IS Christmas day. the original poster said it was six days UNTIL X-Mas. Now, it actually IS six. Thank you- I rest my case.....

OH BOY! COUNTING FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT!

[Jester]

Saturday is Christmas with my extended family in Oklahoma. Worst part will be the 5 hour drive tomorrow to get there...especially since I get off at 6am. Gonna catch a nap and then drive on in. Need to be able to sleep Friday night anyway so I can get up and around early Saturday.

[MsMarvelDuckie]

I feel for you, Jester. My family is doing theirs Saturday, too, and sadly, that means dealing with my step-dud again. Here's hoping he doesn't act like an ass again like he usually does to me and my other half. His FAMILY treats us better than HE does. He makes me want to take a shovel to his skull and bang repeatedly until the twitching stops.....

[BubblyShell22]

Originally Posted by Leo656

Meh? MEH? I would take ANY chance to put this behind me forever. They can take a hand, an eye, or the testicle I'm not particularly all that fond of. I just want to BREATHE, to have the life of a normal person. I'd give ANYTHING, try absolutely ANYTHING...

You don't wanna know how much blood I brought up today. Seriously. It's BAD. And it happens ALL the time.

I have been assured by several non-specialist doctors that there ARE surgeries that can help, I just need a specialist's recommendation and the money to pay for it, and I don't have that right now. I know a few people who had issues similar to mine, and they're much better now. I hate doctors, too, but the fact that other people have been helped is what keeps me going, sometimes. The idea that someday, when I have the money, I might not have to suffer anymore.

I have been told one possible down side is, depending on the type of surgery I'd need, I could lose my sense of smell. Whatever. I can't smell anything anyway, I'm constantly sick for 7 months a year! Small price to pay.

No offense, but if you're in that much pain, take the shot. Otherwise you're suffering when you maybe don't have to, and I can't see any logic in that.

Believe me, if I was in your situation, I probably would try and fix it if I could. I remember we asked my retinalogist if my headaches were due to the surgery, but he said they weren't and they were just some sinus thing. But as I said, I never had problems like that before the surgery. I was talking to Mom about it yesterday, and she suspects that maybe when they put the scleral buckle in they could have used a bit of gas to help hold it in place but not enough like what would be needed for the gas bubble, which is another procedure you can use to fix a retinal tear. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I got the surgery, but since this is mostly a weather related thing, I don't think there's anything that can be done because it's based on weather patterns. I just don't want to get my hopes up and then some specialist says, "Sorry, there's nothing we can do for you."

So to hell with it. I'll just deal with it. There are days where I'm okay and I just have a little pain. It's mostly when there's cold fronts, warm fronts, high pressure systems, low pressure systems, rain, snow, storms, and sh*t like that. Maybe if I lived in Florida I wouldn't have this problem. I remember when we went to Disney World in 2001 and my sister had headaches, but they went away when she was down there.

[Leo656]

Well, a while ago I was talking to a gym client who also teaches human biology, and while these things ARE often triggered by weather, specifically things like pollen counts, airborne allergens, things like that, there's still a physical side of it. Like, something physically misplaced that "traps" bacteria in the sinus cavity so it breeds itself faster than the body can flush it out, or something, which is why some people like me never get colds, but will go from "Perfectly Healthy" to completely infected in about three hours or so. I can't remember. It was like an hour-long conversation, but it made complete and total sense the way she explained it. They have to cut something out of my face, basically, either remove or cauterize part of my sinus cavity. Something like that. Then things are supposed to be "normal", and I might only get sick like everyone else does, maybe once a year for a couple days, and not as intense as it is now.

I definitely want to do it. It's just the doctor's visit for the specialist is $400 just so he can tell you that you need the surgery, and the surgery itself is, like all procedures, prohibitively expensive. I fully intend to find a way, one day. And I agree, if by some chance it doesn't work, well... I'll be furious, frankly. But, that's life; you gotta try, sometimes, and then at least you'll know.

Sounds extreme, but... I wanted to kill myself over this a couple times. Like, when I had an infection that lasted upwards of a month, and I was really depressed, because it was like the third time in two months, and nothing seemed to be getting better, and there was pus coming out of my tear ducts, and I couldn't stop bringing up blood... and I sat down and added up all the days I'd been sick in my entire life, and... I kind of decided I couldn't handle another 40 or so years of living this way. I didn't DO anything about it - I literally have no idea how I would ever do it even if I was really committed to it - but I was really in a dark place until I eventually got better. There were other things going on that contributed to that feeling, but there's nothing so bad you can't make it worse by adding a sinus infection. That's just the cherry.

Anyways, I hope we all feel better soon. I'd much rather be happy than sad, especially this time of year, but this makes it tough. But at least I *think* I'll be better by Christmas. I've spent too many Christmas days in bed and it really sucks the fun out of everything. My wife loves Christmas and I really hate when I can't be "on" and enjoy it just as much as she does. But I think we're both gonna just barely make it this time, so that's a plus.

[BubblyShell22]

That totally makes sense, Leo, because that's how I've felt this whole time. It's always weather related and nothing else, but as I said, I live in a region where our weather changes constantly and there's not much I can really do. If I lived in Florida or maybe southern California where it pretty much just stays one type of weather most of the time, I'd probably be okay. And come to think of it, I rarely get sick either. I can't even remember the last time I was really sick, but I do remember I had the flu on Christmas one year and that was the last time I really got sick. I've just got a pretty good immune system, and I'm thankful for that.

I hear you about not wanting to feel down on Christmas, but sometimes, it just happens. I do hope you feel better though. I'll send positive thoughts your way.