What Grinds Your Gears? :)

[Dawnatello Turtle Chick]

Originally Posted by BubblyShell22

That's the best thing you can do, Dawn. Just be there for him and let him know that you support him no matter what.

Originally Posted by pennydreadful

That sucks, Dawn - long commutes are awful (sometimes it takes me two hours to get home), but it would be hard to turn down the money. Bubbly's right though, sounds like you're doing the best you can do.

Thanks guys, I appreciate the support. I'll let you know how it turns out!

[Slade]

Let's see. My brother-in-law and his girl. It started with his 'girlfriend'. Basically, my wife, sister-in-law and mother-in-law don't like her. He and this 'thing' are crazy. On and off all the time. Anyway, last night, while my little boy was over there at my mother-in-laws ,because I'm working 4-12 and my wife works 7am to 7 pm, where he stays, she was over there too. Well, my wife made it over to pick our son up after work. She was ready to go and trying to get our son to tell everyone bye. He goes into the room with my b.i.l. to tell him bye. He then starts grilling my son about why he didn't tell his trashy female bye. Basically, making my 4 year old say that my wife told him not too. She didn't. Anyway, they get into a big fight and my b.i.l. starts to throw toys at my wife. She has bruises. She's pregnant. I'm pissed.

Tonight, my son is over there again. Brother-in-law is mean to him, having nothing to do with him at all. Makes him cry on the way home. So, my wife texts him asking what the deal is. They argue again. He tells her he should have beat her ass last night and if he has to leave the house, (mother-in-law's boyfriend is coming down and she doesn't want her son acting an ass) and lose his job then he is going to make me lose mine. Thing is, he wants to work where I am, and I've been here a year already. So, I have leverage over him. It's also pretty hard to get fired from the fed's.(too much to explain) Anyway, I'm probably just going to beat the living f**k out of him and hope I don't get charged with a felony.

[pennydreadful]

That situation sounds utterly screwed. Your wife and son shouldn't be going over there again, IMO. As much as I understand the urge to deliver a righteous smackdown... it's probably best if you don't. If you got busted, it'd just be more stress which your wife doesn't need right now.

Just cut the dude out of your life if he's giving you that much aggro. You don't have to tolerate violent or abusive behavior from this cretin.

[Slade]

I haven't been over there. This all happens while I'm at work. He talks big, but would NEVER do that if I was there. Thing is though. It's my mother-in-law who watches my little boy after 5. So, my wife has to go over there to pick him up.

[ZariusTwo]

So I got a PM from a good buddy asking if I was alright after reading the abuse in the now locked Emmy nominations thread and Machias Bansheer's' last post there. I have'nt been in that thread since I apologized for criticising the Nick show, but all indications are it seemed nobody decided to take that apology on board and the abuse continued.

If anything, this behavior ultimately vindicates me and makes me dislike the Nick 'toon even more. Congratulations.

[Leo656]

I'unno guy, I know what you mean based on the stuff going on in the movie threads. I kind of feel like I'm in the same position, sometimes. I wanna talk to these cats, but man, they make it hard sometimes. Nobody accepts others opinions anymore. Whatever happened to, "I disagree with what you say, but will defend, to the death, your right to say it?" I mean, that little bit of philosophy is the one and only useful thing the French ever contributed to the world, and we just toss it away.

I kinda feel like some kind of comic geek pseudo-intellectual Captain America, sometimes. Like I was frozen and one day woke up in a world I didn't recognize, where discourse wasn't a thing.

[Candy Kappa]

The terrible internet where I live now is really gear grinding, it's worse then the old dial-up, no joke.

Also annoyed at my yellow-bellied slider Salvador, now that it's summer he's gotten really aggressive lately (damn mating season) and he is a biter, clamps on the females necks. I don't have the space or funds for an extra tank, so I'll either lock him in the bathroom for a few hours or let him roam in the apartment, with supervision.

[ZariusTwo]

Originally Posted by Leo656

I'unno guy, I know what you mean based on the stuff going on in the movie threads. I kind of feel like I'm in the same position, sometimes. I wanna talk to these cats, but man, they make it hard sometimes. Nobody accepts others opinions anymore. Whatever happened to, "I disagree with what you say, but will defend, to the death, your right to say it?" I mean, that little bit of philosophy is the one and only useful thing the French ever contributed to the world, and we just toss it away.

I mainly side with the guys that say "hey, I like this premise so much, I'll do what I can to convince people it's great through the calibure of my own output" that could easily range from "give this episode a try, follow this character all season, focus on something that you can get enjoyment out of" to "see what I can do with this in my own fanfics", which Bubbly does and does it very well.

[pennydreadful]

Originally Posted by Leo656

I'unno guy, I know what you mean based on the stuff going on in the movie threads. I kind of feel like I'm in the same position, sometimes. I wanna talk to these cats, but man, they make it hard sometimes. Nobody accepts others opinions anymore. Whatever happened to, "I disagree with what you say, but will defend, to the death, your right to say it?" I mean, that little bit of philosophy is the one and only useful thing the French ever contributed to the world, and we just toss it away.

Pffft, the French - buncha cheese-eating surrender monkeys! I kid, I kid.

I get what you mean though - I mean, you and I disagree about a buttload of things, but we still get on ok. I truly believe there is no divide that childish jokes cannot bridge.

Kappa, you tell your boy turtle that that's no way to treat a lady! Seriously though, sorry he's acting up on you. Animals - they lead a much simpler life than hours. Sometimes, I can't help but envy them.

[Leo656]

^ So well, in fact, I'd be hard-pressed to name three of those things because aside from joking around about it, they don't seem to come up.

Although I'unno how someone as blatantly misogynistic as I am has so many chick friends to begin with. Always been that way. Your species confuses me. I think deep down, everyone sort of likes having someone give 'em some sh*t. Otherwise, I don't get it.

As far as forum disagreements go, I have a suspicion I'm a good deal older than some of the people who seriously don't grasp what I'm trying to say... but at the same time I try real hard to give people the benefit of the doubt and NOT just assume they're juveniles just because some of their logic is juvenile. It's tricky. Because while I don't talk down to people younger than me, I do try and consider the source in cases where I actually am talking to someone much younger. You know... because everyone's kind of a moron until they're about 28, they just don't realize it? I try real, real hard to account for that.

[Netkeeper]

lmfao vague self-loathing under the cut dont read it i just need to vent

Spoiler:

ahahahaHA i ****ing hate myself i hate my body i hate that what should be there isn't there and what IS there SHOULDNT be there and i hate my high pitched loud as **** freak of nature voice lMAO THERE ARE PEOPLE ON THIS PLANET ON THIS FORUM EVEN THAT WOULD CALL ME A 'THING' AND NOT A PERSON HAHAHA MY UNCLE CALLED ME A CIRCUS FREAK ONCE YOU KNOW THAT he called me a useless freak that doesnt have a job because he's just too lazy and not because i might have tried that already and it clearly doesnt work

i had a nightmare that i got a job but was called an animal by my supervisor and then fired just because im lgbt because ahahahahah you are legally allowed to fire people for that reason in this state hell you can legally refuse to hire them to begin with so why should i even try applying anywhere when i'm too stupid to do the work and i'm too freakish to even be allowed in public hahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH I WANNA PUKE

THE BEST PART IS THAT I NEVER GOT A DIAGNOSIS BACK WHEN I WAS UNDER INSURANCE BECAUSE MY PARENTS DIDNT THINK I HAD ANYTHING LIKE THAT i once asked my mother "what the HELL is wrong with me why cant i communicate with other people without pissing them off"

you know what she told me

she told me "you just have a really high IQ and cant talk to us lesser people because of it"

I'M SORRY MOM YOU'RE WONDERFUL AND I LOVE YOU BUT THAT'S A LOAD OF **** I AM NOT SMART if i was smart i wouldnt read totals on the cash register ****ing backwards and i wouldnt have to use my fingers to add and i would be able to retain all the information ive learned because IQ isnt measured by amount of facts you know its measured by your capacity to learn

and my capacity to learn is absolutely horrendous i'm a stupid ****ing freak and I WANT A DOCTOR I WANT HELP SOMEBODY PLEASE ****ING HELP ME I'LL DO ANYTHING

i once wrote a depressed character in an RP who wanted to escape his situation so he put himself directly in danger because maybe having a big event happen would put changes into motion, maybe he just needed to kick the gear to get it to start moving

i'm honestly thinking doing the same thing myself is the only way out

edit: i cant even breathe without being reminded of why i hate myself i just woke up theres no way i'll be able to sleep this off i dont know what im going to do

[BubblyShell22]

Zar and Leo, I agree with you about the opinions thing. If you have a negative opinion, you're not allowed to express it and it's just stupid. I could see if you hadn't edited your post as you did, Zar, but I see nothing wrong with it since you fixed it. This is why I stay away from the movie thread for good and probably won't show up there until I review the movie. And if it sucks, I'm gonna say it and I don't care.

Net, sorry to hear about all of that. Don't do anything drastic because we would miss you around here. *hugs*

[Leo656]

Yeah. (I never have anything at all to say to encourage people whose problems outweigh my own. I'm horrible with expressing empathy.)

So, a major gear grind of mine, not being able to relax how I want to. When I was a kid, my Dad worked 6 and a half days a week, and when he was off, he either went hunting OR parked his ass on the couch watching sports and couldn't be moved with a bulldozer. I completely understood and respected that. While there were times I wanted to spend more time with him, there were lots of times when all I had to do was ask, so if he was in "Me Time" mode, I tried to understand it. It's my firm belief that working people can spend their free time exactly how they want to.

So, as I've gotten older, I've become really upset that I rarely get to truly enjoy my days off. Mostly because of my wife and her family. It seems like every time I have a day off, a huge fight breaks out among the entire household. Either her parents are pissed off - "You don't need any days off! You getting paid to sit at home all day?" - OR, more frequently, the wife starts nagging me to do things I don't want to do. Here's the thing: I'm a homebody, and I hate socializing with people. Even after I wrestle, when everyone else is hitting the bar, 9 times out of 10 I just want to go the hell home and get away from everyone. I'm truly happier being by myself, doing "nothing", than being around anyone else, doing anything. My childhood was a constant flux of moving, being homeless, so I like the stability of "just sitting around". And I'm constantly around people, 7 days a week most times, and it's exhausting. I'm boring as hell, I know, but I'm simple: When it's my own time, I like to read, play video games, and sleep. That's it.

So, of course, every day off I get, it's "You never want to do anything!" I do something every day: I go to work, come home, cook, clean, and scrape together a little time to relax before doing it all over again. When I get an entire day to myself, it's like a gift. I don't want to be bothered. With anything.

So, anyway, the wife says, "Let's take the dog for a walk," and I say I don't feel like it, but she can feel free. She gets super annoyed, I reply that we have a big yard and if I want to play with the dog I'll just do that, I don't want to go for a walk. So the guilt-tripping starts, and the nagging, and the "What's the big deal?", and now I'm getting really mad because I had to say No more than once. I try explaining that it's the principle of the thing, that I'm sick of not being able to just do "Nothing" at my leisure, and next thing we're yelling at each other over it.

I know it's easy enough to say I should have just gone for a stupid walk, but I just can't take being pushed around anymore. I'm never allowed to just do what I want, even if what I want to do is Nothing. All I do is placate people. Is it too much to ask to just sit in the f*cking air conditioner and read for a few hours on days when I actually can?

I swear, the only time I'm ever happy is when I'm in the shower. It's the only time I'm ever alone with my thoughts and for a few minutes nobody expects anything from me. Sigh.

[pennydreadful]

Originally Posted by Leo656

^ So well, in fact, I'd be hard-pressed to name three of those things because aside from joking around about it, they don't seem to come up.

Although I'unno how someone as blatantly misogynistic as I am has so many chick friends to begin with. Always been that way. Your species confuses me. I think deep down, everyone sort of likes having someone give 'em some sh*t. Otherwise, I don't get it.

As far as forum disagreements go, I have a suspicion I'm a good deal older than some of the people who seriously don't grasp what I'm trying to say... but at the same time I try real hard to give people the benefit of the doubt and NOT just assume they're juveniles just because some of their logic is juvenile. It's tricky. Because while I don't talk down to people younger than me, I do try and consider the source in cases where I actually am talking to someone much younger. You know... because everyone's kind of a moron until they're about 28, they just don't realize it? I try real, real hard to account for that.

Oh I wouldn't call you a misogynist. You're kind of chauvanistic on some issues (I blame the cruddy social conditioning of the patriarchal structure ), but you do realize that women are people - and that counts for a hell of a lot with me. You come off as a pretty decent dude to me, who doesn't really discriminate based on race/gender/orientation - as long as people treat you with respect, you respect them right back - so I really can't fault you. On a side note - sorry your wife and her family are breaking your balls again.

Also, I was an absolute tool in my younger years, so I also try to factor that in and cut other people a lot of slack because of it.

Originally Posted by Netkeeper

lmfao vague self-loathing under the cut dont read it i just need to vent

Spoiler:

ahahahaHA i ****ing hate myself i hate my body i hate that what should be there isn't there and what IS there SHOULDNT be there and i hate my high pitched loud as **** freak of nature voice lMAO THERE ARE PEOPLE ON THIS PLANET ON THIS FORUM EVEN THAT WOULD CALL ME A 'THING' AND NOT A PERSON HAHAHA MY UNCLE CALLED ME A CIRCUS FREAK ONCE YOU KNOW THAT he called me a useless freak that doesnt have a job because he's just too lazy and not because i might have tried that already and it clearly doesnt work

i had a nightmare that i got a job but was called an animal by my supervisor and then fired just because im lgbt because ahahahahah you are legally allowed to fire people for that reason in this state hell you can legally refuse to hire them to begin with so why should i even try applying anywhere when i'm too stupid to do the work and i'm too freakish to even be allowed in public hahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH I WANNA PUKE

THE BEST PART IS THAT I NEVER GOT A DIAGNOSIS BACK WHEN I WAS UNDER INSURANCE BECAUSE MY PARENTS DIDNT THINK I HAD ANYTHING LIKE THAT i once asked my mother "what the HELL is wrong with me why cant i communicate with other people without pissing them off"

you know what she told me

she told me "you just have a really high IQ and cant talk to us lesser people because of it"

I'M SORRY MOM YOU'RE WONDERFUL AND I LOVE YOU BUT THAT'S A LOAD OF **** I AM NOT SMART if i was smart i wouldnt read totals on the cash register ****ing backwards and i wouldnt have to use my fingers to add and i would be able to retain all the information ive learned because IQ isnt measured by amount of facts you know its measured by your capacity to learn

and my capacity to learn is absolutely horrendous i'm a stupid ****ing freak and I WANT A DOCTOR I WANT HELP SOMEBODY PLEASE ****ING HELP ME I'LL DO ANYTHING

i once wrote a depressed character in an RP who wanted to escape his situation so he put himself directly in danger because maybe having a big event happen would put changes into motion, maybe he just needed to kick the gear to get it to start moving

i'm honestly thinking doing the same thing myself is the only way out

edit: i cant even breathe without being reminded of why i hate myself i just woke up theres no way i'll be able to sleep this off i dont know what im going to do

Ah frack, this is what happens when I don't log in for a day... sorry I wasn't here for you Net. *hugs*

I understand how you feel - but you're not a freak, and you're not stupid. You're a wonderful person, and you're one of my fave people on here. You're dealing with some sh*tty stuff right now - but you are going to make it through, and one day this will all be behind you. One day, you will look in the mirror and like what you see. I promise. You're strong enough to make it through this.

As far as not being able to add - that doesn't make you stupid. Everybody's good at different things - I'm terrible at math too (I had tutors for math my entire school life, and I still failed math every single year even though I tried so hard). Not everybody's good at the same things. Like Einstein said, "Everybody is a genius - but if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."

And being unemployed doesn't make you a loser. Your first responsibility has to be to your health and your safety, and right now that's the most important thing - both your physical and mental health.

It's ok to be different, and to have bad days and feel blue. But please don't think that you're worthless, because you're not. Don't judge yourself by other people's standards - if you've made it out of bed, showered and gotten dressed for the day, that's already a huge achievement as far as I'm concerned. Try to do something nice for yourself, because you do deserve it.

If you need me, please PM me ok? I'll get an email notification and I always check my email every day, even if I have a day off from the forums every now and then. I'm thinking of you, buddy.

[Icebot]

When things change at my job. I was asking someone if any procedure changed and that person said no, why do you ask? That embarrassed me. I don't like it when I think people might forget to tell me of any procedure changes and I can get in trouble for not following them.

Unacceptable.

[Leo656]

Eh, I do have issues with women. All the female role models in my family were terrible and I had a string of girls cheat on me when I was young and vulnerable. The old cliches. But it's the same as anything else, individuals are individuals and need to be treated as such. I can't blame every women I meet for the fact my mom had problems with drinking and screwing around and that every other chick I knew until I was 18 was a lunatic in some fashion or other. I do know that. Collectively, though, in the broadest, most general terms, y'all seem nuts.

And all that drama yesterday passed quickly, and everything's fine. I just get more pissed in the moment sometimes, y'know? Like, just on principle. I do hear what she's saying, I do get too mad too fast sometimes, I just keep *trying* to explain (she's an interrupter, you can never get a word in with her around) "Listen, I wouldn't get so angry if you didn't do this to me every single time I have a day off, and if I only had to say 'No" one time and have that be the end of it." Her parents stayed out of it this time, and it passed quick. It's just like, geez, every time I have a day off? Really?

But eh, it's fine.

[pennydreadful]

Originally Posted by Icebot

When things change at my job. I was asking someone if any procedure changed and that person said no, why do you ask? That embarrassed me. I don't like it when I think people might forget to tell me of any procedure changes and I can get in trouble for not following them.

Unacceptable.

That sucks, Ice...

Originally Posted by Leo656

Eh, I do have issues with women. All the female role models in my family were terrible and I had a string of girls cheat on me when I was young and vulnerable. The old cliches. But it's the same as anything else, individuals are individuals and need to be treated as such. I can't blame every women I meet for the fact my mom had problems with drinking and screwing around and that every other chick I knew until I was 18 was a lunatic in some fashion or other. I do know that. Collectively, though, in the broadest, most general terms, y'all seem nuts.

And all that drama yesterday passed quickly, and everything's fine. I just get more pissed in the moment sometimes, y'know? Like, just on principle. I do hear what she's saying, I do get too mad too fast sometimes, I just keep *trying* to explain (she's an interrupter, you can never get a word in with her around) "Listen, I wouldn't get so angry if you didn't do this to me every single time I have a day off, and if I only had to say 'No" one time and have that be the end of it." Her parents stayed out of it this time, and it passed quick. It's just like, geez, every time I have a day off? Really?

But eh, it's fine.

I hope your days off start getting respected.

And hey, as far as the crazy female role models thing goes... my dad's a serial cheater and I've had my fair share of slimeball guy encounters. By the same token, I've also been treated like crap by women, so I just figure that I'm love's doormat. Like you said - individuals. It's best to just take people on an "as they come" basis, because if you think about humanity in the collective term, it just makes you want to throw your hands up in disgust and just develop a deep and meaningful relationship with your WeVibe, just to avoid the aggravation.

Probably why I've gotten so much blunter in my old age - I've lost patience with all of the BS headgames that go along with people in general not being able to be honest with themselves (or me) about what they actually want. People would be a hell of a lot happier if they just embraced the baggage of their humanity and stopped feeling guilty instead of getting hung up on what they're told they're supposed to want.

[Dawnatello Turtle Chick]

Originally Posted by Netkeeper

lmfao vague self-loathing under the cut dont read it i just need to vent

Spoiler:

ahahahaHA i ****ing hate myself i hate my body i hate that what should be there isn't there and what IS there SHOULDNT be there and i hate my high pitched loud as **** freak of nature voice lMAO THERE ARE PEOPLE ON THIS PLANET ON THIS FORUM EVEN THAT WOULD CALL ME A 'THING' AND NOT A PERSON HAHAHA MY UNCLE CALLED ME A CIRCUS FREAK ONCE YOU KNOW THAT he called me a useless freak that doesnt have a job because he's just too lazy and not because i might have tried that already and it clearly doesnt work

i had a nightmare that i got a job but was called an animal by my supervisor and then fired just because im lgbt because ahahahahah you are legally allowed to fire people for that reason in this state hell you can legally refuse to hire them to begin with so why should i even try applying anywhere when i'm too stupid to do the work and i'm too freakish to even be allowed in public hahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH I WANNA PUKE

THE BEST PART IS THAT I NEVER GOT A DIAGNOSIS BACK WHEN I WAS UNDER INSURANCE BECAUSE MY PARENTS DIDNT THINK I HAD ANYTHING LIKE THAT i once asked my mother "what the HELL is wrong with me why cant i communicate with other people without pissing them off"

you know what she told me

she told me "you just have a really high IQ and cant talk to us lesser people because of it"

I'M SORRY MOM YOU'RE WONDERFUL AND I LOVE YOU BUT THAT'S A LOAD OF **** I AM NOT SMART if i was smart i wouldnt read totals on the cash register ****ing backwards and i wouldnt have to use my fingers to add and i would be able to retain all the information ive learned because IQ isnt measured by amount of facts you know its measured by your capacity to learn

and my capacity to learn is absolutely horrendous i'm a stupid ****ing freak and I WANT A DOCTOR I WANT HELP SOMEBODY PLEASE ****ING HELP ME I'LL DO ANYTHING

i once wrote a depressed character in an RP who wanted to escape his situation so he put himself directly in danger because maybe having a big event happen would put changes into motion, maybe he just needed to kick the gear to get it to start moving

i'm honestly thinking doing the same thing myself is the only way out

edit: i cant even breathe without being reminded of why i hate myself i just woke up theres no way i'll be able to sleep this off i dont know what im going to do

Spoiler:

Originally Posted by pennydreadful

Ah frack, this is what happens when I don't log in for a day... sorry I wasn't here for you Net. *hugs*

I understand how you feel - but you're not a freak, and you're not stupid. You're a wonderful person, and you're one of my fave people on here. You're dealing with some sh*tty stuff right now - but you are going to make it through, and one day this will all be behind you. One day, you will look in the mirror and like what you see. I promise. You're strong enough to make it through this.

As far as not being able to add - that doesn't make you stupid. Everybody's good at different things - I'm terrible at math too (I had tutors for math my entire school life, and I still failed math every single year even though I tried so hard). Not everybody's good at the same things. Like Einstein said, "Everybody is a genius - but if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."

And being unemployed doesn't make you a loser. Your first responsibility has to be to your health and your safety, and right now that's the most important thing - both your physical and mental health.

It's ok to be different, and to have bad days and feel blue. But please don't think that you're worthless, because you're not. Don't judge yourself by other people's standards - if you've made it out of bed, showered and gotten dressed for the day, that's already a huge achievement as far as I'm concerned. Try to do something nice for yourself, because you do deserve it.

If you need me, please PM me ok? I'll get an email notification and I always check my email every day, even if I have a day off from the forums every now and then. I'm thinking of you, buddy.

About getting a job and life not seeming to work for you in general, I've got a long backstory but the nutshell version- I was diagnosed as Bipolar a few months after stabbing myself in the leg and hanging myself from a roomate's loft bunk with a tie because I was trying to get a voice to stop. The following 2 1/2 years brought constant additional medications, additional side effects, crippling panic attacks, vivid hallucinations (flaming scarecrow chased me 3 blocks while I was walking my dog- poor dog ), rapid cycling rages/depression/anxiety not to mention the fact that I couldn't wake up til about 1:00 pm due to the powerful meds. It was hell, not to mention, this should have been a great time in my life as far as experiences and learning, yada yada- but here I was trapped in this hell. I know that that isn't the same as what you're going through, but I remember sobbing every night, wondering, begging, pleading- was this ever going to get any better? I felt so hopeless and like life didn't have anything to offer me. But, time went on, and things changed. While waiting on the process of getting disability, I finally found a job I could handle, and as time went on, I found that I could handle more and more things. I also found out what I couldn't handle. I couldn't for the life of me be a cashier at a giant retail place, but I worked at Petco for over 5 years and started as a dog trainer then eventually became a manager. I eventually found an amazing man and now have a beautiful son. I quit working in retail but I have a great job that I enjoy and is rewarding to me (I don't make much, but hey, can't have everything). I don't know what exactly your goals are in life, but my point is that eventually things will change and you will be able to pursue them.

And in regards to intelligence and how it relates to math/doing jobs, etc. I've known many people that I would consider smarter than myself (and I graduated 3rd in my class, so I'm no slouch) that couldn't do math with a gun to their head. Plus, if you weren't smart how could you do all your RP stuff so well? You can't be very creative if you're not intelligent. You will eventually get it all sorted and while, I know that's not super comforting right now, it is true- just keep breathing and keep plugging away. You'll get there.

[Dawnatello Turtle Chick]

What is chapping my hide right now is that I'm trying to change a fuse on a broken Sega CD and I seem to be hitting a lot of bumps in my plan. I've been teaching myself how to solder on a junk board and have unfortunately discovered that when choosing which desoldering plunger I should buy I picked incorrectly and now have a worthless bulb plunger that only succeeds in getting in the way and since it's Sunday our (also worthless) Radio Shack is closed. Plus my cat ate some solder which is worrying me... She has to chew on everything, but apparently since it should stay in solid form she should be fine- still, stupid cat, don't engage in potentially lethal chewing habits and worry me, I freaking love you!!

I just want to get this all done & over with. Plus I have to pay Quarterly Sales tax by tomorrow so there's that...

**Edit- found the chewed off solder, so my cat didn't eat it. Good, no worrying.

[Shiro Kame]

What really pisses me off is all the crappy shows like Sidekick (What a stupid cartoon!) and all of those Disney/Nick sitcoms. They portray the characters as immature and annoying with stupid situations, and horrible writing. Honestly, I could do much better.