The New Café

[SassyGal]

Originally Posted by Duke

Well, to be honest she is the major reason I left the technodrome around the beginnning of this year. I felt like I was using this place as an emotional crutch. Maybe not by openly discussing all my personal problems but instead by spending too much time here to avoid dealing with my real emotions. She is also the major reason I lost my love for video games around the same time. I wasn't really enjoying a single game I played. Where I used to love video games with a passion all I seemed to be doing was overanalyzing them and being critical of every little detail. It was the first time I ever played a Zelda title and not only had zero desire to finish the game, but found nothing enjoyable about it at all. That's when I realized that I just lost the joy they once gave me.

But I just recently felt like I was finally starting to truly move on with my life. Things were finally coming together in my personal life and I had even started considering the possibility of starting to date again. I very recently slowly started posting on here again. Plus, I even started to see that sparkle and joy come back that I used to have when I played video games, shortly after I picked up Super Paper Mario. It's really hard to be overly critical and not enjoy such an amazingly wonderful game. And then wham out of no where she calls and in some ways I feel like all the progress and strides forward I made completely disappeared in an instance.

Don't fall into that trap. Don't let someone make you feel that way & undo all your hard work.

Aw, Swany, what's wrong???

[MadPirateBunny]

Originally Posted by Voltron

That's why I just hate everyone, regardless of who they are. My stone cold heart shields me from anything this life has to offer. . .


. . .except loneliness. . .

if you let me hug you, it wouldn't be so lonely

[Swany]

I have absolutley no idea whats up with me. But the smallest thing makes me cry or want to cry just now.

It happens from time to time every few months anyway. (Its not my time of the month) I don't usually cry much. Serves me right for beng so damn cheery all the time. I think I should try and have a wee cry everynow and then. But I don't let myself 'cause theres just too many people I have to be there for.

[SassyGal]

Originally Posted by Swany

I have absolutley no idea whats up with me. But the smallest thing makes me cry or want to cry just now.

It happens from time to time every few months anyway. (Its not my time of the month) I don't usually cry much. Serves me right for beng so damn cheery all the time. I think I should try and have a wee cry everynow and then. But I don't let myself 'cause theres just too many people I have to be there for.

I go through that once in a while too. Being strong & happy for others takes a lot out of you.

Indulge yourself & have a good cry, then sit in the bath to make yourself feel better after the good cry *hugs Swany* It's a good thing we're separated by an ocean so when I hug you, you won't get my strep throat

[Swany]

Originally Posted by SassyGal

I go through that once in a while too. Being strong & happy for others takes a lot out of you.

Indulge yourself & have a good cry, then sit in the bath to make yourself feel better after the good cry *hugs Swany* It's a good thing we're separated by an ocean so when I hug you, you won't get my strep throat

Ah, hunnie you are so sweet. Im happy you understand, I can't really talk to my friends or famliy about it. I mean, I can talk to them about the usual. My lack of relationships, family type stuff, teen stuff. But who can you talk to about the things like staying up till 3AM hugging your mum while she crys into your shoulder. (It doesent hapen al the time, but its bad when it does) My mums went through a lot of crap, nearly losing two of her children, my oldest bro has nealy died a few times, she actually saw my little brother bleeding to death once plus both of those bothers have special needs. She lost a baby between my two oldest btothers, after my oldest bro was born she was told she couldnt have anymore children. (Sha had 4 more. Even if one died). She was physically abused by her dad growing up, he broke her nose and pretty much beat the crap out of her and put her down at every chance., shes had cancer and never told me or my brothers (my dad never told us either). And she uses me as her rock, and I'm there for her because I want to be, but I there are times when it gets too much. So thank you for being so sweet. My mum and wee bro are going out today so I'm gonna have a good long bath. With bubbles, salts and fizzy things.

I'm sorry to have wrote all this emo stuff though. there are times where I just can't keep all it in anymore.

[SassyGal]

Oh Swany!!! *super big hug for you*

That is so much to deal with...I was my mom's rock when she found out on her 40th b-day that she had a sister she never knew about who died 3 days after being born...lots of those sleepless crying nights too. My dad's father used to abuse him, gave him a black eye & punched him in the kidneys on a reg basis. If you ever need to really dump some info when you are feeling bad or up @ 3am & need to talk, pm me honey!!

[Swany]

My way of coping really is just to keep smiling and just to be there for others, I guess thats why it bothers me so much when I get upset. Because I'm not being as strong as I'd like to be, I've actually reached the point where I can't even cey infront of others. Even if they know I'm crying I'll still go and lock myself in my room and be very quiet about it.

But thank you so much, I may or may not take you up on that offer, I'm actually a little suprised at myself for writing all that.

But thanks, for being so nice.

[Cure]

Originally Posted by Peanut

Alright, I know he's dead, but this needs to be heard.

I just received a very insulting message from one LogicDonny over XBL. He has finally put me in my place, from beyond the grave no less.

Click here to download and listen to this horrendous voice message. I'll be weeping in a corner.

He sent me a voice message, too! Remember how I said I was gonna send one to him of myself laughing? I guess he read that and tried to beat me to it. Moron. How do I upload it?

[Peanut]

Originally Posted by TheCure

He sent me a voice message, too! Remember how I said I was gonna send one to him of myself laughing? I guess he read that and tried to beat me to it. Moron. How do I upload it?

I recorded it off of my TV using a mic and my computer, then had my sister upload it to some random site.

[Jo Dawn]

This is for girls only, unless you boys really wanna know...

Spoiler:

Ok, so I go in the Pill to help with my awful, horrible 'times'. I'm about three weeks into it, and I START MY PERIOD before I get to the placebo ones. So I get the cramps, nausea, horrible sleepy allover crappy feeling anyway! So since my body is overpowering the medicine, does this mean I'll have TWO this month? Oh, no sir. That shall not happen...

[Cure]

OK, I got it.

Click here to listen to MY message from LogicDonny. The volume is a little low, so turn up your speakers.

[Peanut]

ROFL!! And that guy is supposed to be in his mid-twenties? Right! We should just get his 360 banned from Live for sending us those messages. Those count as harassment you know.

[Ra]

Good god, when will the madness end?

Originally Posted by Jo Dawn

This is for girls only, unless you boys really wanna know...

Spoiler:

Ok, so I go in the Pill to help with my awful, horrible 'times'. I'm about three weeks into it, and I START MY PERIOD before I get to the placebo ones. So I get the cramps, nausea, horrible sleepy allover crappy feeling anyway! So since my body is overpowering the medicine, does this mean I'll have TWO this month? Oh, no sir. That shall not happen...

Spoiler:

Hm, I'm not to sure I can help, but whenever I get the slightest twinge of pain, I grab a box of stuff called "Ponstan" and take about two or three tablets a day. It really does help ease the pain and cramps, at least. I don't know if they sell it anywhere else other than Australia, however, but if you can find a packet, buy it. It's helped me quite a bit in my time of need, anyway...

[Cure]

Originally Posted by Peanut

ROFL!! And that guy is supposed to be in his mid-twenties? Right! We should just get his 360 banned from Live for sending us those messages. Those count as harassment you know.

I actually did report him again. I just love reporting that fool.

[Duke]

Both those messages are hilarious. He's so retarded.

[Anarky]

Ponstan? You can kill elephants with the bleetin' things. My country's beautiful army cures everything with Ponstan. Flu? Take a Ponstan! Scraped knee? Ponstan! Arm ripped off by a mortar that has gone the wrong way? Ponstan! All's better with Ponstan.

And with three pills you're seriously overdosing. I got the stuff when I had a broken arm where the bone stuck out of the arm. I got the Ponstan 1500s. One pill, high all day long.

[Sunshine]

That stuff sounds like it would be strong enough to take care of the pain in my knees... wow. Too bad I am pretty sure we don't have it round here.

[Ra]

...but I like the pretty colors...

I seriously don't think that the things I'm taking are as strong as you say they are, Anarky. If they are, these little pills are really toned down versions of the real thing. And the recommended dose is 2-3 pills a day, so...

*E* Found a picture of the box. They say "Pharmacy Medicine" on the box, so I don't think they will pose much of a threat.

[Peanut]

Originally Posted by Anarky

Ponstan? You can kill elephants with the bleetin' things. My country's beautiful army cures everything with Ponstan. Flu? Take a Ponstan! Scraped knee? Ponstan! Arm ripped off by a mortar that has gone the wrong way? Ponstan! All's better with Ponstan.

And with three pills you're seriously overdosing. I got the stuff when I had a broken arm where the bone stuck out of the arm. I got the Ponstan 1500s. One pill, high all day long.

How much do you want for a case of that sh*t, brother?

[Sunshine]

Originally Posted by Peanut

How much do you want for a case of that sh*t, brother?

Hehe I think I'd like to know too. Not that I have any money of course. *shrug*